Exams over..

Well exams are finally over. Sucks that FMGT had to be the last fking paper.

I don't know which or how many modules I'm going to fail this time round. There's like a 80-90% chance that I'm going to fail FMGT. It sucks. It really sucks. Fuck if I fail 2 or more modules I will fking ......... Fuck I don't even know what I'm gonna do if that happens. Imagine going through that shit again of repeating a module and blah blah blah. Then lag behind ppl 1 module then need add load for a semester filled with extra shitload of modules WTF. Next, if I fail any modules this time round, I probably cannot go for any attachments during Year 3. FUCK!

Anyway, I did what I could. Studied what I could study albeit slacking quite a lot in between but hey I really studied ok! I even wondered if only I put in this kind of effort throughout an entire semester, who knows how good I could be? Well all I can do now is hope for the best.

P.S. If I pass all my modules this time round, I WILL BLANJA YOU ALL 1 MEAL! SERIOUS!

And not to forget this:

I want to thank everyone who encouraged me and tried to pull me up when I felt stressed and down during this exam period. Thanks. I really appreciate it.

To quit or not to quit?

I'm starting to entertain the thought of quitting school. I don't really see myself going anywhere. At best I can only get like a GPA of 2.5-3.0 for this semester and that is really AT FREAKING BEST. I think getting 2.0 I can tou siao already. With the sucky GPA I had for the 1st 3 semesters, I'm pretty much screwed. I probably cannot enter any local university even if I get GPA 4.0 for all the remaining semesters except for SIM which is -.-

Right now it looks as if the only way out is to complete my diploma and that's it but is a diploma with mediocre results on it desirable? I don't know. I have like zero interest on the modules I'm taking.

I really don't wanna disappoint my parents again especially my Mum. She's gonna pray for me during the exams but I really think that she should just save the effort. I don't deserve it.

I'm starting to sound like Shaq, quitting on teams whenever things start to look bad. Heck I even remembered trying to quit on my ITP attachment at ****** during the 1st few weeks. Am I a quitter or am I just disillusioned? Damn. I probably won't quit school because I don't wanna regret making stupid decisions but failing another module (or more) again will really make me )#*(#%*(#% and it's a total waste of time and effort too.

Anybody out there can give me some good advice? I need all the advice I can get man.

Exam days never stays..

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I fucking hate exams. Poly sucks. Every fking less than half a year and we get exams. Not to mention stupid common tests and projects here and there. Sucks that I can literally waste weeks away without studying a single bit. This is fucking ridiculous man. Why do I hate studying so much? Fked up shit really.

Sorry to everyone whom I chose not to come out with because I wanted to stay home and "study". Yes, you all guessed it right, I didn't study 1 bit at all and I'm fking pissed with myself yet I still don't make the effort to study. Is it because I've given up? Where can I go to in the future with my past semesters' results? Why have I lost so much interest in studies? Wtf happened to me? Is there anything else I can do besides studying at this part of my life? Surprisingly I always think abt my future when it comes to exam period. I can't wait for this exam period to pass. Seriously, I'm 50% regretting that I chose poly. Maybe I could have gone to JC instead but who's to say that I can handle the workload there. At least there only got 2 exams I need to work hard for: year 1 promos and A lvls. Poly fking needs 6 exams that counts into your diploma result sheet with common tests, endless projects blah blah blah. Maybe, just maybe I should have gone to army first cos I heard that when you are in the army, you would be glad to be studying instead. Ok fuck the "maybes" and just get on with life man.

Well I need someone to REALLY accompany me to study. Past tries have been disastrous. Either we ended up talking or playing or just plain wasting time but right now I think wasting time outside will be better than rotting at home while trying to study, unsuccessfully.

Oh ya before I forget, Happy Valentine's Day. Sucks that I have to spend V Day with books and notes and tutorials. Not that I got a valentine date though =)